We are living strange days.
Days that teach us the lives, we were thinking they are rising on strong pillars, are just the simulations and illusions. In theory, I have already been aware of the concept of perception based contexts surrounding us. However, experiencing it at first hand shocked me deeply. It's just a real life experiment which makes me feel my life is an experiment with the conditions, set by others.
The feeling of safety, order, trust, security, truth, crime, responsibility, good, bad... everything has just been mixed. I belong to no one. I'm a member of no camp. The only important thing I know is I need to provide a safe environment for my family.
It is not upto me. It's beyond my will and capability.
I believe that the life is something, people need to overcome the minor personal issues in their daily routines such as killing the pain in their heads, finding the right pair of shoes for their bags, taking their cars from service depot fast etc. The human condition itself is a complex thing enough to deal with. Therefore, big narratives are not needed actually. There's no absolute right or wrong in most of the categories that we can understand.
Reality is far from us.
We are floating in the pool of the signs and symbols referencing nothing real.
We are watching the world from the window which is as narrow as a life time of an average human being and assuming the values, virtues, states, instutions and everything we think we can understand is stable, permanent and strong. But they are not, they just seem so. Widen the window for 200 years and see the change...
It's a paradox.
I watch the crowds yelling, moving, humming, provoking each other...
I watch high levels of emotions driving blocks of people.
I watch the leaders.
I watch the followers.
And I see the behavioral patterns that are natural and primitive and expected.
What we need is our lives. Our authentic and "so called" peaceful lives.
What we need is the feeling of freedom where the existence of the biopower is proven.
What we need is a fresh breath until our death.